Yep, I wanna be a blogger. Why? I suppose because I want significance. Want to write and have people moved in all sorts of ways by what is written. But...ya kinda have to have something people want to read...something significant to say! Ha! And really, so many more significant reasons OUGHT to be the purpose. So...this is simply my musings. Just random thoughts...I can type faster than I can pencil it in my journal.
My musings this morning? I was frustrated and anxious and getting testy (aka: angry). Why? Because I get overwhelmed quickly with deciding what I ought to be doing. Ridiculous really. Have a house I can't seem to get control of and stay ahead of, 4 beautiful lives I'm responsible for teaching responsibility to, and failing miserably, and I couldn't decide whether or not we should stay inside, or go to the park. Yep, big choices going on here.
But, the musing part this morning was reflecting on the horrific reality that my inability to choose playing outside, or staying in (and letting play continue while I attempt to "do" something and doing nothing really) is so very...it's hard to even pick the word to express it...shallow, yet that doesn't carry the weight I want to express.
I have been reading bits in the news or alerts through email or whatnot of Believers being killed, crucified, fleeing for their lives. Intense, real, daily persecution going on in many, many parts of the world, our world, and yet here I am at home...a very large and comfortable home filled with everything I could ever need and overflowing with lots I don't even need, trying to decide what leisure activity to do?! What word describes this contrast of lives?!
We are currently living about 15 minutes from the beach. A dream I've had for years and I'm loving it. Yet, the last time I was there it struck me as I watch people lounging in the sun just to get their skin darkened, or flaunt their bodies, or both, or boating, or playing, we are SO lazy! So much of our day can, and is, devoted to entertainment, leisure, play while others are in intense battles simply to maintain existence on this planet. Meanwhile we sit on our laurels and can't decide which fun activity to do next.
Sad. Shameful. Horrific.
Somewhere in all this restlessness and indecisiveness of play, maybe it's grace from God attempting to stir up that there's so much more to life than this...
And then what? What is that more...how do we use these days appropriately, significantly, eternally?
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